Depression is a mental health disorder that a many people suffer worldwide, and even some sportspersons are affected by it. Team India’s veteran Robin Uthappa, known for his hard hitting knocks and huge sixes, was fighting with depression during his career, and even developed suicidal tendencies. However, the only thing that prevented the wicket keeping batsman from ‘jumping off the balcony’ was the thing that he is best at- the gentleman’s game.
Now without any cricketing fixtures and the suspension of 2020 Indian Premier League, a number of franchises of the cash rich league have taken to live sessions on social media, where players talk about various topics ranging from their career to personal matters.
In the latest episode of ‘Mind, Body and Soul’ a three part series discuss positivity, mental health, and happiness, hosted by Royal Rajasthan Foundation, Uthappa revealed a phase of his career when he was battling against depression.
“I remember around 2009 to 2011, it was constant and I would deal with that on a daily basis. There were times where I wasn’t even thinking about cricket, it was probably the farthest thing in my mind,” the 34 year old said in the session.
While the negative thoughts clouded his mind during the times with no fixtures, heading to the 22 yards was the perfect remedy for Uthappa.
He continued: “I was thinking about how I would survive this day and move on to the next, what’s happening to my life and in which direction am I heading. Cricket kept my mind off of these thoughts but it became really difficult on non-match days and during the off-season.”
“On days, I would just be sitting there and would think to myself on the count of three, I’m going to run and jump off of the balcony but something kind of just held me back,” the Kerala cricket team star added.
Uthappa has made 46 ODI and 13 T20I appearances for the Men in Blue, his last one dating all the way back in July 2015 in an ODI against Zimbabwe. The former Kolkata Knight Riders icon was picked by Rajasthan Royals ahead of IPL 2020.